I Just Turned 19; I Found Out My Dad Was Messaging People About Me Sexually.

Location: Illinois

My dad has lived with me most of my whole life, he’s always stayed with me and my grandma (because he could never hold a job due to his drug addiction.)

He had been using my laptop for months because he wanted it for “Fanduel” and etc. In October, I went in his room to get my laptop to take it back and study on my ASVAB practice test. Eventually he gets home and notices it’s not in his room so he texts me angrily and asks why I took it without permission then takes it back to apparently “clear it” then he gave it back. The next day comes and I go to Gmail. I saw he was still logged in and I come to see an email from Reddit saying his post got removed with the caption of “Saw my daughter in the shower…kinda”. At first I didn’t believe that was from his account because that’s my dad, why would he do that? Then I start to dive deeper into these emails because I’m very confused, as I’m doing this I FaceTime my aunt because I was horrified because as I’m clicking these emails, my dad was in the other room.

So I click the Reddit email and I click the links from it and then it brings me to his account STILL logged in!! I found out he had been telling people he wanted to do sexual things to me since I was 14, had been going in my room and taking my dirty underwear and sending pics of them to people. He was telling people that he was gonna drug me and rape me in my sleep, and how he wanted to watch me get gang banged. (I have all the proof)

After I found all of this out, the same day I ran out of the house and went to the police and got a restraining order against him, after he got kicked out I found a mini spy camera he had in his stuff in his room but the flash drive is missing, so who knows what’s on it. . He was part of groups on Reddit called “Incest confessions” and “daddydaughterincest” with people talking the same way about their underage daughters, I even showed the police, they haven’t done anything…told me “he didn’t actually do anything physically so we can’t do anything which I don’t get. How am I supposed to permanently get him away from me?? How can he not be charged with anything??

It feels all the years I was next to him he was living a double life, who would have ever thought my own dad would be such a sick person. I truly cared for him throughout his drug addiction, this is so sickening and a nightmare.