The World Is Fucked?

The world is fucked?

Hi. I don't know how to start properly but I am really anxious that there is nothing left in the world to do. Like everything is fucked up and humans do it to themselves. The water resources are dying out, the climate change is happening and etc. Like idk if it is my period messing up my brain rn but idk dude. I don't see meaning in life rn. Like ok. Say you became an accountant. You just exist and everything (no offence to anyone, I just want to went).

The country I am living in, is fucking up their education system for years now and it's becoming harder to pass the exams while the curriculum is less memorising the knowledge. It feels wrong to me. Also I don't understand why should people like memorise the inventors of things (Tesla, Alexander Graham Bell and etc). I don't see the point of memorising them. Like if I am learning biology, why should I learn about someone dead. Like ok I may learn the theory or whatever ,that they had discovered or inventeed but idk the information feels useless for some reasons.

Also my parents try to make business out of social media but it has stopped working for a while now and i feel guilty because they are trying to pay for my tuition, which is something around 10 to 12 thousand dollars a year. They try to give me the best education that is currently available for us but idk. Because of the education system going down, my school tries to adopt to at least seem like it's under the curriculum but it obviously slips cracks in kind of sneaking extra curriculums to students.

Speaking of tuitions, I don't understand why some colleges want a lot of money for their education. Like take a medical university or a law university. They cost dozens but just because you might become a doctor or a lawyer in the future and make a lot of money, maybe you can pay it off. I haven't seen the statistics but I think the dropping out statistics are not good.

I feel like people are ignorant about stuff that is happening around them and hyping on dumbass trends. Like compare climate change and the new women that work in the White House that everyone think that they are aliens because of how they look. Who gets more hype and attention? The women. Hear me out but if we put the alien bullshit aside, the women might have some sort of genetic mutation or something went wrong with their botox or maybe they had an accident and now they have to look like that. Humans are not perfect and no one is flawless.

One of my flaws is that I can jump from sentence about topic A to topic B in a few sentences without realising it. And I probably already did it here too, I am sorry for anyone who had gotten confused.

The reason why I am writing this is that because I need to get this shit out of myself. Because I can not tell my friends everything because I have trust issues and I always calculate what I need to say. Parents are the same, I can't share shit about what happens in school most of the time because it is either about lgbtq+ (I have no against lgbtq+ community. It's about my parents who are old and traditional and won't understand and be like, meh and I don't want to be the one telling them that so I mostly don't tell about it) jokes or things my classmates do. And for example my best friend who I am friends with her for 5 years now, has a crush on her mom's cousin who is like 8 or 9 years older than her. I don't care what she does, but I don't give a fuck about that. Because she is, call her M, a really "ayaya, it's so cuteeee. Omgggg what if he is thinking about mee?!??! Hey, do you have ideas how to seduce him??" Kind of person and I started to get tired of the same topic getting repeated over and over again,as if I am her unpaid therapist and I am probably in my friend group. And it sometimes cringes me out to listen to them but meh.

I think I feel a little bit better now and I am welcome to hear your opinions out! I am still thinking that humans ignore the fact that the world is doomed and ruled by old geezers and everything. Attack on Titan has really opened my worldview quite a bit tbh.