I Don't Know Where To Go Anymore. No Ai Community Will Accept Me.

I'm pro AI.
But I am also worried about a lot of things, like what the government wants to do with AI, Flock, certain things that AI can do, etc.
I'm also worried about the slow down and pause that everyone wants to do, and how strictly they want to regulate and limit it for everyone, and their plan to kill off open models and models from China.

But I can't post anywhere.

Because I'm pro-AI, I can't post any of my worries about AI in any of the anti subs, because I'm pro and they'll get fucking pissed at me.

But because I'm critical of some things around AI, and worried about what some bad actors might do with it, and worried about the future for AI and us using it, I can't post in any of the pro subs because all they'll listen to is "AI is the future and amazing and will solve all our problems and antis are stupid."

I've tried many subs...
r/accelerate (Get very mad at and downvote any post that has AI worries, calling it "doomerism". Will rarely read past title or first sentence.)
r/singularity (Get very mad at and downvote any post that has AI worries, calling it "doomerism". Will rarely read past title or first sentence.)
r/defendingai (Get very mad at and downvote any post that has AI worries, calling it "doomerism". Will rarely read past title or first sentence.)
r/leftistsforai (Deleted all my posts, saying it's "not constructive discussion", then perma-banned and perma-muted me for arguing.)
r/antiai (Know that I'm mostly pro and any time I post a worry they insult me heavily, call me stupid, downvote me and say "Oh you just now found that out dumbass?")
r/aiwars (A horrible mix of both anti and pro AI. Some days you'll get mostly anti, and other days you'll get mostly pro. And with that comes the same issues of both. Antis hate you posting anything pro, and pros hate you posting anything critical.)
r/aiwarsbutbetter (The same, despite the name.)
r/ArtificialInteligence (Everyone in this sub acts like a stereotypical Redditor, in that they're all smarter than you and you're stupid. You have no idea how AI works so you should shut the hell up. That's not what an LLM is... maybe you should go back to school LOL.)

Not a single one worked out.
There is no place for someone that's pro AI but also worried about the direction AI is going.

Either you are anti AI, or you are pro AI.
Either you want AI completely shut down, or you want it to speed up and go faster.
Either you have nothing but worries, or you have no worries at all.

I cannot find a place that allows me to make the posts I do without getting very mad at me, downvoting me to the deepest pits of hell and insulting me.

Like recently I wanted to post about how I'm worried with the slow downs and regulations coming from everyone thinking AI will kill us all, that they're going to start pulling AI away from us, heavily nerfing and regulating what we get even more than they already were, while they continue to give the unregulated and best AI to the government to use for awful stuff like Flock and scanning our messages online to put us in "risk categories", or denying us life insurance and healthcare based on health trends.

That I find it hard to be excited about AI anymore because I'm worried they're going to start taking it away from us and using it for evil themselves.
Every single place I've tried to post this has downvoted me and called me a doomer, said they aren't reading all my "slop" and insulted me. I have not found a single place where I can post it because either the antis downvote and insult me for being pro, or the pros downvote and insult me for being a "doomer".

Here's some of the results of me posting it to one place

https://preview.redd.it/1eb6fckjycph1.png?width=1072&format=png&auto=webp&s=c329e860d457fac51f3ab15747c441d5fde19d67

Pretty much all I ever get.

I just can't find anywhere to post.
It also doesn't help that alongside using it for research, problem solving, easing my fears of certain things, making and modding games, and creating models in Blender, I use AI for things most people hate, like roleplay and some nsfw, because that's not a "proper" use of the technology I guess.

I'm not sure I have a place anywhere. Everywhere I go I'm insulted and chased out. Everyone is starting to make me feel like I'm insane and deranged. I already feel ostracized from society because I'm weird and autistic, and this isn't helping.