Forfited My Rights When I Was 17.... Now My 17 Year Old Is Reaching Out ...

I had my first child when I was 15 years old. I come from a very dysfunctional family everyone around me was on drugs in prison and fighting my whole life. when we originally acquired a DHS case it was because of my mother's meth use. but at the time marijuana was still illegal and I had a hot UA for marijuana and got a DHS case at the same time. I won't try and tell you everything that happened but basically at the end of the day I was separated from my family pressured by my therapist and caseworker to feel like I was not giving my all to my child. I was going to college overnight (I was 17 now) and hadn't had any hot erase for marijuana and literally didn't have any connections with anyone from my past life. and realistically The Foster home that I was in, The mother was unable to have more children of her own as she was Mormon and her husband left her for some other woman, My true and honest belief is that she wanted to take my child from me and so she did everything she could to make me look like I was incapable of being her mother. I went to court one day and my caseworker told me that we were going to have a termination hearing that day and that I was going to be very intense and they were going to talk about everything I had ever did wrong then that I probably just didn't want to do that and I should probably just sign my rights over.

8 months previous to this I happened to find my father for the first time. and about a month or two before this court date my father was shot and killed.

So I folded and I signed my rights away.

I've waited 15 years to have any sort of information on my child and what's been going on with them. The adoptive mother promised me many things like not changing my child's name or like sending me pictures of my child while they grew up none of which happened.

now my child is telling me about what their life has been like. how this adoptive mother is an alcoholic (which I knew because I made my concerns known to the DHS caseworker when she just had my child in her care and would call me drunk in the middle of the night) set the adoptive mother has been physically abusive to them.

My child would like to meet in person. My child is very concerned that their adoptive mother will take their phone because they like to just take things that my child cares about as a way to control them.

My child will be 18 years old in 6 months.... My child asked me to get them a phone so that way we could communicate no matter what.

I just don't know what to do. My instincts are going in a hundred different directions.

I'm wondering where I stand legally and if I were to meet up with my child or get them a phone what laws am I breaking?

location: Colorado