I'm Being Forced Back Into My Abusive Household By Cps And It's Not Safe. (f15, Nevada)

Location: Nevada

Hey Reddit, I've written here quite a few times on different accounts before. I need help.

I am 15 years old. I have been getting physically, sexually, and emotionally abused since I was ten years old. This includes medical neglect and general neglect, too. I am now a ward of the state, apparently, but I am being sent back home in a week by my relatives. The horrors that have happened to me in the household are terrible. I live with C-PTSD because of what happened to me. My younger sister is being molested by my brother. My father and mother are mishandling my brother's autism, leading him to rage out on my sister and me. The last time I was in the home, I thought I was going to die, barricading myself against a door, praying that it wouldn't break through because my brother had a weapon. My father and mother did not sufficiently protect me. They have never sufficiently protected me. I have never felt loved, cared for, or protected, just scared. I have been scared ever since I was six years old, and I do not want to be scared anymore.

I have 19 CPS reports and 6 police reports. I have told teachers, counselors, neighbors, family members, literally anyone I could. I have been to emergency rooms, police offices, homeless shelters, runaway shelters, and resource places, but no one has helped. 311 has also not helped. I have been to psychiatric hospitals, too, and they seem to just make it worse. The last psychiatric hospital I went to was abusive, and I don't want to go back to another hospital.

I have told my CPS caseworker everything. Every bit of abuse, every fear, every time I was terrified, all the neglect, the sexual abuse, and it seems nothing ever comes out of it. Every time I try to escape my household, I end up being dragged home by cops, being told that I'm going to stay in my house. I am all out of options.

My brother sounds very violent over the phone, and I am afraid I will end up in another domestic incident if I come home, and I don't know how much longer I can last. Please help me.