Truly Unable To Work, Judge Told My Ex If I Don't Pay My Child Support For 3 Months To Have Me Arrested

Location: AZ I spent the last 15 years, 6 of them I was married, trying to raise my girls. My entire life revolved around them. My marriage was abusive. I was homeless when I got married and never held a baby until a month before my first was born. I changed my entire life around for her. He sexually assaulted me and got me pregnant with our youngest daughter.

Things got 10 times worse after we divorced. He is diagnosed borderline and narcissistic personality disorder. He was kicked out of the Army not once, but twice for mental health issues. After Iraq and we divorced things were so much worse. He constantly harassed me, interfered with the girls school and appointments, started stalking me. He put me through 9 and CPS investigations that were all determined to be unfounded and CPS even contacted the court to say that he was using them to harass and intimidate me. I had nothing. All I did was work. But my girls and I were happy.

Three years ago he got a really high position in my city, started dating a public defender who knew our judge and backed him up in court and I lost custody of my girls and had a no contact order but against me. I was also ordered to pay $500 a month in child support. He was making $100,000 while I was making minimum wage.

Last summer CPS contacted me and told me that they found out that he had moved out of his house leaving the two girls behind to care for themselves. I took him back to court. He had a good lawyer and the charges against him were thrown out but the back child support came up. I owe $20,000. We had a hearing on it today and even though my ex-husband said that he would take a lump sum of half the judge said no and that if I didn't pay for 3 months straight that my ex should call the constable and have me arrested even though my youngest is still a minor and still living on her own.

I have been out of work for the past year because I was diagnosed with a severe debilitating autoimmune disorder, rheumatoid arthritis. I can barely walk. I can't use my hands properly. I finally got an official diagnosis last week and medication but the doctor said it wouldn't even begin to start working for at least 6 months. I still can't work. Because of the disease I lost my car and my apartment and I'm staying with my boyfriend right now. I've looked and I don't qualify for any loans. I tried to open a credit card and my limit is $300.

He has kept me down my entire life and I can't lose my freedom because of him as well. I'm pretty much at the lowest point I've ever been. I don't really see the point of going on right now. If anyone has any idea of what I can do to get out from under this please let me know. And please do not for the love of God suggest that I get a lawyer. If I could have afforded a lawyer in any way shape or form in the past 13 years I have been fighting him in court things never would have gotten close to this bad. I have done everything in my power to obtain representation and I have not been able to.