What Should I Do About My Parents Abusing Me? (minor)

Location: Maine

I (15 [16 in three weeks] F) have suddenly realized that my parents (mom and stepfather) are emotionally abusive.

I apologize if I miss some details, this has been a very rough few days.

All names included are fake.

Household members: Mom (50ish), stepfather (46ish), stepbrother (18), sister (22), me (15)

My mother and stepfather were wed 8-9 years ago, where we then moved into our now home. They were dating on and off for a year before being engaged, and married a year after being engaged, roughly. During the time they were dating, my stepfather (John) was nothing but kind to her. He brought his son (Carter) to play with me and my sister (Hailey) and he was odd (obviously traumatized in hindsight) but not horrible. John was kind to me and my sister, although he often ignored us and just dropped Carter off to play and forget about him for a while, he just acted like another guy my mother was dating nothing special.

When we moved in, everything changed. John was now insulting, belittling, and hot headed. He would scream at us for doing nothing. If I (8) sat in my room quietly at 4am because I couldn't sleep, laying in bed, staring at the ceiling and he found out I was I would be screamed at for hours and forced to just sit there and call him sir. My sister, Hailey, was often forced to clean and do disgusting things as punishment for things that had either never happened, weren't her fault, or were never a rule before.

This has just been getting worse. I have stopped being safe out of home, my only safe haven. He calls me occasionally, for no reason, to insult me. The other day I was promised a ride home from school from my mother and when I texted her about it John called me and said I was a lazy piece of shit for not walking home, telling me that I could've already been home by now, that I was stupid and he couldn't understand how I can possibly think I deserved a ride home from school. I then walked home.

Yesterday, I came home to find John had gone through all of my stuff and put piles of trash on my bed. I just wanted to lay down. I broke down sobbing, he screamed at me and took my computer, luckily leaving my phone because he knew I would do unforgivable things if he took what I paid for, that hadn't even gone through his credit card. Why did he go through all of my stuff you may ask? Because my mother told him she was upset with me and he loves to yell. She came up to my bedroom and whispered "sorry..." Which was obviously a lie. It disgusted me that she could do that to me again, just like she done many times before.

My mother has been a drug addict all my life, some of my earliest memories are of me softly crying to myself that she left me alone (to go get high). I don't remember anything good about her to be honest. I have gone weeks over summer with no meal (only eating food I've hoarded) because she spends money on weed.

My clothes are all falling apart, holes everywhere, because she refuses to buy, or even find, me new clothes. I use a beanbag chair as a pillow because I only have one actual pillow. I had horrible knotted hair for years because she refused to take care of me, to the point where my hair follicles are pretty much permanently damaged and I had to chop off all of my hair.

While many things have happened, I feel these are really some of the most important things to include. Feel free to ask for more examples or clarification as needed.

I only recently started properly realizing what it's like to be treated correctly by your parents when I went over to some friends houses and was amazed at how nice they were to each other. Even when their parents got upset at them they just... Talked normally. There was no screaming.

I want that.

He has never hit me and I haven't been keeping track of what he's been doing to me because I thought it was normal, which I obviously realize now that it is not.

How can I get out? Who do I call? Who should I speak to?

Thank you for any advice at all.